Celtrixa

Just got back from Trader Joe's, went to check the mail and my Celtrixa shipment (a "miracle" stretch mark) cream came in today. It's starting to look like I'm falling for the infomercial scams this month (i.e. HCG drops and now Celtrixa). But really, I thought "Why not?". I have a ton of stretch marks from the baby and it can't hurt to rub useless cream on my tummy and pray that they go away. The worst that will happen is that it doesn't work. Oh well. I used the free trial they tell you on the commercials. Shipped promptly to the house, and only cost shipping + handling. Of course they are going to try to bill me after the standard 30-day crap (at which I will promptly cancel if I do not see an iota of difference) but let's just see what happens for these thirty days, and I will report back on its effectiveness.

Onto my interesting night last night. Hubby and I got in a HUGE fight (we're okay now), and all I wanted to do is order Dominoes, go to Carl's Jr, or anything else that would lessen (or distract me) from the anxiety I was feeling. It took everything I had not to go. Well, that and it was raining like CRAZY last night (so that definitely helped). I found that after about twenty minutes, the cravings started to go away and I was able to ride it out. I've heard that tip a million times (http://www.wikihow.com/Avoid-the-Temptation-to-Eat-Unhealthy-Foods) but I never thought it was true. IT IS. Just go do something for 30 minutes, and if see if the cravings are still there. Totally worked for me.

Had my customary Slim Fast + Hydroxycut for Breakfast and its almost about lunchtime. BUT THIS is what I'm having for Dinner. Made it last night and it was AMAZING. And healthy too. Instead of the foccacia bread slices, I switched them out for Grissini breadsticks (45 calories for two of them).

Now....off to wrangle my toddler into his bed for nap time...wish me luck :)

Slim fast is here to save the day

I QUIT the HCG diet! I couldnt do it anymore. Late last night, the more I sat there and thought about it, the more I felt that I didnt need to rush things. I know slow and steady wins the race, I just thought I could out run it. I tend to be one of those people that thinks just because it doesnt work for most doesnt mean it wont work for me. Well, it didnt. I was starving (I dont do starving very well). I was cranky. At the end of the day, I wasnt myself anymore. Everything that people say about it IS true. 


SO. Back to the Slim Fast diet. I was on it before I had started the HCG (I just got impatient) and I was doing great. I wasnt hungry, and my husband and I were having a blast trying new recipes every night. And thats how it should be anyway. A lifestyle change. The slim fast diet isnt crazy restrictive either, and it works for me because I am in no shape to make breakfast for myself in the morning. When you have a toddler screaming bloody murder at 6am to be let out of his room to watch Dora (yes, Dora the Explorer), the last thing you're thinking about is preparing a large nutritious breakfast. I pretty much just stumble out of bed, get him fed, and then half-conciously sing- along to cartoons with him. So, a slim fast fits best (for ME) in there somewhere for me, haha.


On to the juicy part, I know everyone wants to hear. YES, I binged immediately after banishing HCG from my life. It was late at night (favorite time to eat), what do you want from me?! I was subsisting on 500 calories for two days! Yes, I know, everyone told me so! I had a whole bag of Lindt chocolates (so GOOD), and I made a box of pasta (whole wheat) to get my strength back up. But, guess what? I LOST a pound! Haha, I think my body was just happy to have food in it. AND I learned my lesson. No more crazy restrictive diets (no matter HOW MANY testimonials say that say they lost crazy amounts of weight). I WILL eat healthy and not starve myself. 


NEXT BATTLE: I need to get up and get the motivation to work out....It's so gross out today I just want to stay home...:(

Day One (Not really but we're going with it)

Ok. This is day one of my blog. Ive been on the HCG Platinum X-30 diet for 4 days. Did two fat loading days (GROSS, I felt sick the entire time and I gained two pounds), two days on the regular diet, and now I'm back at my starting weight of 204. Hungry, but not too hungry so far. Just wanting to get through this day mostly. Isn't that how everyone feels on these types of ridiculous diets? Yes, spare me, I know the diet is absolutely INSANE, but hey, we have to hit our heads on the wall a few times before we learn. I'm basically using this as a jump start approach. I KNOW that real sustainable long-term weight loss comes from diet and exercise. The name of the game is just burning more calories than you take in to achieve real fat loss. I think everyone knows that at this point, we just want to get there faster, I guess. I want to get at least 20 pounds off, so that I can exercise easier without knee pain. That, and I'm just absolutely DESPERATE to lose weight. To understand why I'm desperate requires the backstory....


I used to be a pretty girl. Not trying to toot my own horn here. But I was, I got lots of attention and got everything I wanted. It was a great life. Then I met my husband, got pregnant, and we had a baby. BOOM. Post-partum depression. Baby blues. Struggling to adjust to a new baby. No time to cook a healthy meal. Fast forward to today and I'm 70 pounds over where I'm supposed to be at. It's no one's fault except mine. I wear my husbands t-shirts around the house (so I don't have to see the fatness), and I cant remember the last time I put makeup on. Life has definetly changed. In some ways for the better (husband and baby), but definetly not in the weight department.

OK, so now that that's out of the way, this is my journey. I don't know how long its going to take to get my body back. I'm just going to keep going until I do. I'm not giving up on myself this time. I started this blog because I thought "Well, if other mom's can do it, so should I". I want to be able to wear jeans again. I want to look in the mirror (its been ages). I want to take pictures and smile! I want my husband to look at me again (and not because he's wondering where's dinner?). I want to look good in public (yes, I know that's shallow, but hey, who's perfect?). I want my pretty girl back. I don't know if anyone will read this. I guess it doesn't really matter. The point is to keep myself accountable. If there are other moms (non-moms and men too) that need support, know that we are all in this weight thing together. Keep me accountable people :)

P.S. Since this is day one of my blog, and I'm positive no one even knows this exists yet, no before pictures are up. If I do get a following (however small), and people request them, I will post them up. This is all about helping to keep everyone motivated. See you later people :)