Ok. This is day one of my blog. Ive been on the HCG Platinum X-30 diet for 4 days. Did two fat loading days (GROSS, I felt sick the entire time and I gained two pounds), two days on the regular diet, and now I'm back at my starting weight of 204. Hungry, but not too hungry so far. Just wanting to get through this day mostly. Isn't that how everyone feels on these types of ridiculous diets? Yes, spare me, I know the diet is absolutely INSANE, but hey, we have to hit our heads on the wall a few times before we learn. I'm basically using this as a jump start approach. I KNOW that real sustainable long-term weight loss comes from diet and exercise. The name of the game is just burning more calories than you take in to achieve real fat loss. I think everyone knows that at this point, we just want to get there faster, I guess. I want to get at least 20 pounds off, so that I can exercise easier without knee pain. That, and I'm just absolutely DESPERATE to lose weight. To understand why I'm desperate requires the backstory....
I used to be a pretty girl. Not trying to toot my own horn here. But I was, I got lots of attention and got everything I wanted. It was a great life. Then I met my husband, got pregnant, and we had a baby. BOOM. Post-partum depression. Baby blues. Struggling to adjust to a new baby. No time to cook a healthy meal. Fast forward to today and I'm 70 pounds over where I'm supposed to be at. It's no one's fault except mine. I wear my husbands t-shirts around the house (so I don't have to see the fatness), and I cant remember the last time I put makeup on. Life has definetly changed. In some ways for the better (husband and baby), but definetly not in the weight department.
OK, so now that that's out of the way, this is my journey. I don't know how long its going to take to get my body back. I'm just going to keep going until I do. I'm not giving up on myself this time. I started this blog because I thought "Well, if other mom's can do it, so should I". I want to be able to wear jeans again. I want to look in the mirror (its been ages). I want to take pictures and smile! I want my husband to look at me again (and not because he's wondering where's dinner?). I want to look good in public (yes, I know that's shallow, but hey, who's perfect?). I want my pretty girl back. I don't know if anyone will read this. I guess it doesn't really matter. The point is to keep myself accountable. If there are other moms (non-moms and men too) that need support, know that we are all in this weight thing together. Keep me accountable people :)
P.S. Since this is day one of my blog, and I'm positive no one even knows this exists yet, no before pictures are up. If I do get a following (however small), and people request them, I will post them up. This is all about helping to keep everyone motivated. See you later people :)
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